alae

i woke up. palpitating.

hypothermic.

i had cancer. 

i was in a hospital bed.

a nurse came in to tell me the lovely news that ihave cancer.

what a good what to start the day huh?

i went over my fridge to get the wine i bought afew days.

was i ever ready to drown everything.

ohhh the bottle was cold.

i forgot one part: cork opener.

at that point i wanted to just break the bottle.

~dream meaning~

Cancer

To dream that you have cancer, denoteshopelessness, grief, self-pity, and unforgiveness. You feel you are wastingyour life away. This dream also represents areas in your life which arebothering you, disturbing you, and hurting you in some emotional way. 

To dream that you are being treated for cancer,signifies a positive change in your life.

To dream that someone has cancer, indicates thatyou need to change your negative way of thinking before it creates a cancer inyou.

Cancer

Dreaming that you have cancer, means hopelessness,grief, self-pity, and UN forgiveness. You feel you are wasting your life away.This dream also represents areas in your life which are bothering you,disturbing you, and hurting you in some emotional way. Dreaming that someonehas cancer, demonstrates that you need to change your negative way of thinkingbefore it creates a cancer in you. Start being more positive.

god. how long had i been miserable?

how long do i have to be like this?

i gave myself 2 minutes to cry it over. 

on my 30th second no more tears came.

so i guess its just about it then. :D

so imma rush to the chase.

its over. it is.

like there was anything to begin with.

i think i kept myself a prisoner of my own misery.

so give me my wings and ill fly from here :D