always

"Take care of my heart, I left it with you" - EdwardCullen , Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer

i was always skeptic about the emotion we calllove, i don't know why i do.. maybe because i was never an expert on itexperience-wise... i have had my fair share ( 2 "unofficialboyfriends", 3 flings, 1 flavor of the month for July, and one who nearlytook my hart away--almost?! and in between that, i have had my list of agazillion crushes)

the only pure love that i was able to see formyself was the love that people seem hard to understand... forbidden, taboo,unorthodox like...

i was never an expert on this, never was...

i feel elated, grateful even...

amazingly, it was all truly real...

so real i could touch it and have a taste of it...

it was overflowing, seemed like there would neverbe enough of time for it...

i feel that it was what i was missing all along,

that certain feeling of contentment with just asimple touch of the hand,

that sense of satisfaction and that sense ofelation and euphoria one feels...

envious at times but maybe just maybe,

one day,

id meet him (or her? i am open-minded) and whenthat time comes,

i would never let it slip away...

id be cliche and be mushy anyway i want too...

and til i await for that day,

i only have one love that i do best as of now:

my love for the person that matter to me most...

that only person that would look at me like i wasever so perfect flaws included,

that maybe in his eyes i was all he ever wantedwas a friend...

things maybe hard for him and for me but i nevercomplained...

had my share of cries and near-suicidal moments,

but at the end of the day,

i always have him...

and i hope he knows that i am here as well...

ALWAYS...