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Life has been tough for me lately.

There have been so many moving pieces that I feel that I cannot keep up anymore. Yes, it seems as though I never get my own set of worries. But truth be told, I am just like you carrying my own baggage and weight in this cruel world trying to survive one day at a time.

The one thing I thought I felt truly secured with now feels like floating away. Just when I thought I can get comfortable, now feels like I am on a boat with a small leak. Waiting and waiting for the right time to jump out. I just can't try to keep it at bay anymore. I don't think I could ever survive this.

Contrary to my humor, I am the opposite of that. Only a few truly know who I am inside. The person you see on the daily, that's not who I really am.

I am melancholic.

Lately,

the feeling has become more frequent.

I sleep too much.

I at times cry myself to sleep.

I also find it hard to fall asleep.

Feeling rather helpless and lonely.

Yes, sometimes even in a huge crowd with all the people I know - I will always still feel alone. Don't you feel at times that you are nothing but a number? That you can just be gone and no one will ever notice. I have always felt that way.

Just a number.

Three.

That's how many times I have replayed re: Stacks by Bon Iver today.

What is your go-to song choice for crying?

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